I Want to Quit, But I Won't

This morning I felt excited about this new health journey that I am on. I felt empowered and energetic. I felt unstoppable and admittedly even a little overconfident in my "amazing" willpower. And then life happened. I found out that I had to make two important phone calls, one to my insurance company (yet again) and another to Costco who shorted me $100.00 in a refund. Both calls were stressful. Both calls had me waiting on the phone for a period of time. And both of my children have a radar. It's called the "I-can-tell-that-you-are-the-phone-about-something-important-so-I-am-going-to-fight-with-my-sister-and-yell-and-scream" radar.

It was after resorting to locking myself in my room so that I could hear the person on the other end of the phone, that my patience began to wear paper thin. I really felt my emotions exploding inside of me. This is a somewhat new experience for me. You see...normally as the stress keeps mounting, I typically head for the kitchen and immediately start eating whatever I can find in the pantry or fridge (i.e. chocolate, popcorn, chips, pretzels, or even some ice cream). Today, however, I have carrot sticks, celery sticks, an apple, or some strawberries. And while I do like vegetables and fruit, it just doesn't have quite the same appeal to calm my nerves.

So what do you do when you are hit with an emotional eating situation, but you have no junk food to binge on? Well...you have deal with your emotions. Seems simple right? But for some reason, a lot of people eat instead of confronting their feelings. I am one of them, but I am trying to change. Change is so hard, but it's harder to be in this heavy, unhealthy body everyday. So for now...despite the stress...I am going to choose to just breath slowly and deeply. I'm going to let myself FEEL the frustration and irritation that I am currently experiencing and then I am going to let it go and move on.