Thursday, July 17, 2008

The Inner Battle

I recently became a new branch manager at a local credit union. Ten months ago I became a landlord. A year ago I battled some health issues. Two years before that I fought every day to lose weight. Four years ago I was newly married and adjusting to life with my husband. What do all of these situations have in common? They are moments in my life that have presented me with an opportunity to change, for better or worse.

I am discovering that I can handle these challenges in one of two ways. The challenge can become the nail in my coffin OR it can be a DEFINING moment in my life. The choice is mine.

I just finished reading a book about someone who has had many more challenges than me. She was a survivor of the genocide that took place in Cambodia in the 1970's. She out-lived her father, mother, and two sisters by the time she turned eight years old. I have NEVER had to deal with such harsh circumstances. How do people overcome such cruel trials?

My inner battle right now consists of, "What am I doing with the time that has been given me while here on earth?" as well as, "What do I need to accomplish so that when I die I KNOW I have experienced a fulfilling life?" My father helped me answer the second question. He said, "Amy, if you consistently make an effort to pray, listen, and follow through with any promptings that you receive from the Holy Ghost, you WILL be able to leave this life knowing you did your best. You will leave knowing you lived a fulfilling life." I believe he is right.